every time i feel that i’ve made progress in terms of feeling positive and more neutral towards people, life always decides to test my patience.
on my way home tonight i noticed that i was low on gas. so i figured i’d stop by the gas station to fill up the tank for my dad since i used up most of the fuel. after filling up i turned around to walk back towards the driver’s side door, when all of a sudden 5 gang members surrounded me (of which two pulled out a firearm). they asked me where i was from and what i had on me. i’ve been in similar situations several times in the last few years so i figured it’d be best to comply to whatever their demands. in the end, they took my shoes, jacket, phone, and wallet.
the first two times i’d experienced a robbery i felt extremely shaken up. then, afterwards, angry and hateful towards those people. but now i can’t even comprehend what i’m feeling.. i have no idea what has come over me. for one, i didn’t report this to the police. i don’t even necessarily feel angry. i’m a bit frustrated because i have to replace my phone again.. but that’s about it.
i guess the habit of “looking at the brighter side” of things plays a factor in this. after all.. they could have stolen the car i’d just filled up and left me stuck, or they could have shot me. but they didn’t..
i hope none of you have to go through a situation like this.
be aware out there, and stay safe!
It’s alright. I’m a bit surprised to receive questions about her. I decided to stop writing about her because I felt pretty pathetic continuously moping on here for the last year and a half about what had happened.
arhat exhibit by takashi murakami
at blum & poe
out for late-night snacks
finally going to watch
just another night
random snaps from norcal trip